I spend so much time thinking about the person I was once as opposed to the person I am today. In fact, that time is spent thinking about how to separate myself from my past at an effort to avoid any shame or guilt I feel because of who I was. I need to understand that the person I am is a result of the person I was. I still cast the same shadow, still bleed the same blood, still remember who he was and what he did. I was coping with things I was only beginning to understand at the time. I love the strength he possessed and reiterate that he was enough when I needed him. This piece is based off the idea that I am the shadow I cast and have cast prior to today, there is no need to shame the man I once knew and intrinsically the man I once was.
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I once read online that loneliness added beauty to life and for a moment I started to believe it. There is no beauty in being alone, there is however, a period of time in which you get to know yourself. It is hard seeing the friends you were once tethered to leave without a goodbye but being alone allows you to build a foundation for the relationship you share with yourself. I am learning to be there unconditionally for myself, there is enough ridicule and judement from others when you make a mistake, I see no point in exiling the person I was from the person I want to be. Loneliness doesn't add beauty to life, it simply opens up your eyes so that you can see the beauty that already exists much clearer.On day four I created an image using red as the predominant color and spoke about its symbolic presence in my life. Therefore, in honor of it being day eight, I decided to create a piece that essentially felt like a sequential partner to that image. The color blue is a cool breeze in a winter storm, it is the sky and it is a broken heart. I know what blue feels like, it is sadness, detachment, and fear. But be that as it may, blue is the raging sea and I've bathed in its vibrant glory. Blue is a calm mind, a trusting friend, and the intellectual partner that balances lust. I'm a strong believer that great art mimics life by interrupting equilibrium. The warm and loving days you experience are evened out and stablized by the hard and heavy moments we live through. I know blue like a brother, it is a color whose presence is a reflection of the strength of an individual.Today is officially day 7, the end of the first week for my 30 day challenge. It has been extremely difficult gathering the strength this last week to shoot something new and conceptual every day and finding the time to edit. Here are a couple things I've learned since beginning
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