Darkness held me like the toxic lover it was
it is Firm grasp and unwavering strength It whispers in my ear that I will never be good enough that I simply could never be “enough” so I submit and watch as it takes fragments of my soul and pollutes them. watch as it rips pieces of my heart and hides them watch as it strips me of my skin and leaves me broken. vulnerable and afraid It's the closest I've ever been to a crime scene Darkness is the closest I've ever been to a murderer
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i am a museum full of art
but you had your eyes shut - Rupi Kaur i am a beautiful day but you never left your house -Bryan Clavel you taught me there was beauty in fragility so I learned to love myself. - Bryan Clavel Rupi Kaur is a contemporary poet writing on topics such as love, loss and trauma. Her work is often recognized as "one of few commercially popular works of poetry in recent years" and yet simultaneously noted as "unchallenging ‘Instapoetry’ by some critics." That said, I describe Rupi Kaur's work as honest, vulnerable built on a simple composition that is easy for most readers to follow. In fact, it is public knowledge that "Kaur does not subscribe to the belief that poetry must be difficult to be meaningful" and therefore continues to write poetry widely recognized as direct. One who does what the Friend wants done
will never need a friend. There's a bankruptcy that's pure gain. The moon stays bright when it doesn't avoid the night. A rose's rarest essence lives in the thorn. -Rumi __________________________________ My mother asked me to come forward and so I did. There's pain in honesty, but I'd gladly hurt again. How can you live if you never leave the house. A queer mans strength lies in visibility. - Bryan This poem is about lineage. Narrated by an unknown speaker, the reader intrinsically becomes part of the story as we unravel the connections between Lucy and presumably her children. The opening line "Lucy is the Ocean" grounds the reader with the knowledge that Lucy represents a monumental figure, something vast and unending. However, as the reader progresses the lines appear to overlap with one another, appearing to signify both the closing of a line and the opening of another. For instance;
"Lucy is is the Ocean extended by her girls [Her Girls] are the river fed by Lucy [Lucy ] is the Sun" this stylistic choice further gives the impression that story of both Lucy and her girls are twined, twinned and woven together. In retrospect, the work speaks on the reflection of a mother in her children. Ultimately closing with a premise grounded on the idea that we are an extension of our family. Severed Wings
and lost hope I could hear the angels cry I stitched feathers in your light you made sure I could fly but now these wings feel like weights and your image evokes shame I was never meant to be angel I was never meant to remain pure if your love is unconditional let my mistakes just open doors and the wisdom that I gain be the thing which sets me free so take these feathers clip my wings if it means that I can see To my mother the moon
I never realized how much I look just like you I spent my whole life blinded by the sun blinded from the truth everyday I see myself in you but the sun oh the sun to be a son and feel like a child of the moon I was always torn in two the person that I wanted to be and the person that you knew Tired Eyes and Fine lines
I don't know who you are In fact I'm unsure if I ever knew I think there was a time you smiled and didn't feel crippled by the weight of the world I think there was time you smiled and didn't worry about what you weighed or hate who you were I think there was a time you smiled and weren't reminded of the shame Reminded of the guilt Reminded of the Pain Pain Pain Paint So you pick up a brush and you try to create But I don't know who you are So you can't sign your name Tired Eyes and Fine lines I don't know who you are So I wait.... and maybe then I'll remember your name. And maybe then, I'll remember OUR name I know what I must look like
desperate for love as I refuse to practice what I preach "be patient, he's out there" "don't settle for less than you deserve" and though I repeat the ritual It's hard to hear unspoken words in fact, all I've ever loved are strangers something fast something easy something quick "but please don't leave me" yet, they always leave and trust, it's always me the one who says it first and wears "I love you" like a second sleeve but "who could a love broken dying thing?" still, "I love you" leaves my mouth more often than hello I like to think it's always searching for a home you see I love you doesn't nest in empty vessels and self hate has never furnished homes so "I love you" leaves my body since self hate is all I know Those boys will never love you
They love music a sweet tune They love art but you will never be their muse Because you are a summer secret something dark they must keep hidden They don't call you by your name As if this alleviates the shame The Shame they carry for “loving” someone like... “loving” someone broken “loving” someone so... Those men will never love you they will never hold your hand They will never treat you to lunch but how can you eat when you've already swallowed swallowed your tongue swallowed your words swallowed your pride and forgotten your worth. You have never loved you and so you don't understand That They... they will never love you. |
AuthorBryan Clavel is a gender fluid queer artist and visionary grounded in humanism. For Bryan, their creative practice is a way of life, and to date has been a way of positively impacting the lives of others as well. Critic ReviewThrough their work, Bryan insightfully articulates the narrative of a queer individual. They share with us the dire consequences (personal and transpersonal) when we become isolated, and when we fail to mindfully and compassionately connect with ourselves, with our families (chosen or built), and with our communities.
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